There are moments when you look around and feel so alone yet with people there. That moment when all is just meaningless and nothing can satisfy you.
Yeah, I just lived through that moment. My emotions were uncontrollable, my mind was drowning in negative thoughts and struggling to see the light.
I realised how much I had high expectations of certain people in my life and I was constantly feeling disappointed as those were not being met. I was worried about why other people didn’t attend to my needs. Why is that the same people that I had helped seemed so distant? Aargh here I go again, it’s all about Me.
What hit me the most was how I became so focused on me, myself and I again. How I had totally forgotten about my Helper, yes the Holy Spirit. Why is that when things are hard we quickly and easily put Him aside and forget that He is there regardless. I focused so much in what people were not doing for me. My heart fell into the wrong place and motive. Here I was crying and hurting , seeking support but from the wrong place. At my lowest it was easy to try and fix it on my own because in my small mind I believed I was wiser and was my own provider. Yet still God’s foolishness is wiser than human wisdom.
John 14:16 “And I will ask the Father and He will give you another Helper, to be with you FOREVER….” You see He never leaves me or you but our minds and hearts leave Him. If we chose to focus on people and material things then we will forever feel alone and empty.
Our ACTIONS reflect the CONFIDENCE we have in God. So do not let your reactions prove your otherwise. Proverbs 3:15 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not own your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path.